Death by Workout...changing... tangent...ugh...

2:00 PM on Monday and I feel like my brain is still back in bed.

Wish my body could go meet it there.

This weekend went well, but I noticed that I tend to get a little lax on my water over the weekend. I drink it during and after workout, but I need to make better effort at getting it all in throughout the day.

Besides the water issue, eating was great. Kick ass workout on Saturday (The name of it: Death by Workout. Yup. That pretty much summed it up!) and a run on Sunday. The run actually felt good. I added some hills to the run for good measure. If I can do it on hills, imagine how easy it will feel on just flat land!

Hey, a girl can dream!

I also taught lessons on Sunday. I'm starting to really miss that time now that I have gotten a taste of what it's like without it. Oh well. It is what it is, for now.

Feel funny today. A little dizzy, slightly lightheaded at times, and generally just out of it. As a testament to my out-of-it-ness, I remembered my bio book this morning, but then proceeded to forget my binder, notebook and chapter notes. Good job.

Ugh. I hate Mondays.

Ok, have to think positively. It's 2:00 - which means I am WAY past the halfway mark at work... so that's good. Class gets out at 6:40, which means I get to see Thing 1 before bed. Awesome. Tonight is a rest night for exercise, so once I get home, I can "relax". (I say "relax" because I usually can't - there is always housework to catch up on, especially laundry, and my bedroom, which seems to constantly look like a tornado has just blown through it, lunches and clothes to prepare for tomorrow... come on guys, most of you out there know what I mean!)Umm... let's see... what else... I don't feel sore from my workouts this weekend - a testament to getting stronger. So, yeah, lots of positive things to think about.

I think my brain is still in bed because I had such a hard time falling asleep last night. I kept worrying about terrible things happening to my boys. I have NO idea why. I had a terrible time getting these awful thoughts to leave. When I say terrible, I mean TERRIBLE. I have learned that I am sensitive to things I read or see on TV, especially relating to children, so I try to avoid them if I can. These terrible things are going on to children all around us. What if something happened to MY children? My boys? My reason for living? My sun, stars and sky? Sound dramatic? Then you don't have kids.

Ok, I know you must be thinking "this chick needs drugs". Well, I guess I can understand why you may think that. I do tend to get overwhelmed when it comes to my kids. I can't help it.

Wow, how did I get off on that tangent?? Hmm... let's refocus

Weight loss, exercise, healthy living....

Ok. Weigh in is Wednesday. I feel like I am doing really well with my daily intake, my exercise, and yet I get scared I'm not going to lose. Obviously I need to lose more weight, but mostly I am scared that if I don't lose, I will have to re-think what I am doing with my diet. AGAIN. I feel like I had a revelation. I had to go back to where I was. Low carbs, high protein. Never hungry. Energy. But if I'm not losing, something is wrong.

Crap. I REALLY REALLY don't want to have to revamp this AGAIN. Especially so early back in the weight loss game. It's different down the line, when you've lost a significant amount, and you need to look at what you are doing and tweak to continue losing. Fine. I just don't want to have to do that yet.

I'm realizing that this post is getting tangent-y and whiney. So, I will end it here. Love catching up with all of you from the weekend.