PROGRESS!

Monday, August 25, 2014

The Cat is outta the bag...

It's official.

My last day of my current 40hour-per-week job will be next Friday.

I'm taking a very large, scary leap. 

Will update soon. 

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Panicking LEAPS

How do you really know when taking a big leap is worth it?

I guess you don't know.

I guess that's why it's called faith.

But... making a big change is NOT just about me.

It's about my family.

One wrong move and my family could be in financial chaos.

But staying the same... I just don't think that's an option.

But the panic.... oooohhhhh the panic.

It has set in.

Can I really do this?

SHOULD I really do this?

Will it be worth it?

What if I fail?

I'm trying to allow myself, in this situation, to feel like I feel in the gym.
You just DO it.
You keep at it.
YOU make it a SUCCESS.
It takes hard work, discipline.
There are struggles.
But if you work hard enough, you WILL conquer.

But, in the gym, it's just ME.

There is no one but MYSELF to feel the effects if I fail.

But THIS... this... what if... what if...

Freaking out has officially begun. Where will it go now?

Why do "leaps of faith" have to be SO DAMN BIG?

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Chipping away

All I can manage:







My weight is moving down.
My confidence is moving back up.
And as always, I will:
Keep Moving Forward...

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Exhaustion, Birthdays, Ragtime and DietBet

I can hardly keep my eyes open as I write this. It's 7:04am and I have been at work for a while now. After rehearsals every night for Ragtime, getting home after 11:00 each evening, the exhaustion is catching up with me. Thank GOD I had the for-sight to take tomorrow, Monday and Tuesday OFF of work! Hooray! I am TOTALLY sleeping in tomorrow (which will probably mean 7:00am)

Today is my little ones birthday. He is 4 today. Not a baby anymore, for sure. He is an incredible little human being. Smart, sensitive, caring, stubborn, awesome and most definitely his "own man".
Sometimes he even does chores! Ha!
Last night was our second-to-last rehearsal before our show "goes up" tomorrow night. Of course we started snapping pics. I'll share a sneak peek with you:
"Mother" and "Father"
Battling with my weight for what seems like my whole life never gets easier. I may have lost a lot of weight, but those little voices still plague me. I didn't get my costume until yesterday, and they whole time I was thinking "it's not going to fit. What am I going to do if it doesn't fit?" The costume was MADE for me, from my MEASUREMENTS. So, in reality, I didn't really have a lot to be concerned about. But, that didn't stop those voices. *sigh* I guess that will always be a battle?

The show is going to be wonderful. There are still kinks that we need to work on (as with ANY show!). But, if you are in the CT area and want to come support the show, PLEASE let me know! We have a moving and important story to tell here. Or you can go to our theater companies website Round Table Players to reserve tickets.

A little update on my DietBet. As I think I mentioned, I ended up taking part in not one but TWO dietbets this past month! I am excited to say I made my goal! One is ending today and the other tomorrow. Once I post my official weigh-in for them, I'll share it with you. But I'll give you a hint - it's a VERY nice milestone to see AGAIN.

Keep moving forward!

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

It's SHOWTIME!

During this crazy tech week of Ragtime, The Musical, you won't see any gym pictures. I'm going from work to rehearsal to shower to bed and repeat, until Friday, when I will celebrate the birthday of my beautiful Thing 2 (4 years old!) and get some much needed rest before our Friday night opening.

This is not to say that I will be sedentary. Oh no. I'm doing what I can, when I can. This week, it's 20 minute walks in the morning and afternoon at work. Although rehearsal isn't "exerting" in the way that we think of when going to the gym, it IS being on my feet, in constant motion, for 3-4 hours. No, I don't count it as a workout, but I KNOW I'm burning some calories! 

I won't lie. I'm tired. Bed after 11:00, up at 5:45 to get into work by 6:30 to make up some time I will be taking off on Friday, Monday and Tuesday (ohhhhhhh yeeesssssssss), is really exhausting. However, I have not (and will not) sacrifice my eating because of it. I'm still prepping and logging all of my food. I know that if I default to crap food for convenience, not only will I see it on the scale, I will FEEL it in my energy and I will just generally feel like crap. I don't have time for that shit.

I'm too tired to write anymore. LOL. I just spent the last 5 minutes staring blankly at the screen. So, I'm going to take that as a sign and wrap it up. I can't guarantee another post this week, but I can guarantee I will have SHOW pictures for you next week! (And maybe a scale picture or 2!)

Keep moving forward....

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Almost Wordless Post

Cause things are crazy, and I have almost no words. Because of things like this:


And planning this: (Poor Sammy has to have his party almost 3 weeks after his actual birthday! This WILL be his invite, once I change the name on it.)


















But still doing this:



AND:

Sunday Slam:
4 minute intervals

TRX round 1
10 rows
10 chest press
10 ham curls
 

Round 2
Ropes variation
40 Slams
40 Singles
15 circles (each direction)

Round 3
10 Weighted squats (40#)
10 single arm row (each) (30#)

Round 4
10 floor db press (30#)
15 weighted bridges (60#)

Round 5
20 Switch steps
10 rev crunch

Round 6
10 push-ups
10 box jumps


Sleds x2 - 460#!!!! 






 I feel a little like this:






Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Hitting the Gym - it does your SPIRIT good!


It seems that weekly posts are as good as we are going to get around here right now. 

I didn't set foot in the gym all weekend. Usually my weekends are scheduled around my gym time. Nothing of the sort this past weekend. I was exhausted, and hubby and I are shouldering most of the work on the show we are in coming up in August. We spent all weekend working on costumes mostly. We are actually starting to panic just a little that things are not going to come together...

Anyway, once Monday hit, I was really ready to hit it. I can tell when I haven't gotten to the gym in more the 2-3 days. I start feeling very sluggish and depressed. So, Monday I went to the gym and did this:
Sorry, the writing it messy. Hey, I make it up 5 minutes before I do it and I'm always anxious to get going!

Love me a heavy sled to push around!This is about 295#
I felt great afterward. I never regret a workout, that's for sure.

Then last night, I did this:

Another Power Playground workout at Tuff Girl. This was brutal! Check out the metabolic circuit that we went through in between strength moves! Yowza!

Tire flips! Cargo nets! Slosh pipe! Love, love, love!!

I really, really, loved it. And just in case you didn't see it in my last post. I DID THIS:
video

I cannot hide my pride! I remember last summer doing the Fitathalon and practically needing my coach to carry the lower 1/2 of my body in order to cross the monkey bars. NOW I CAN DO IT! I'm going to keep working so I can do hand-over-hand.

I attempted the rope again, and got up a little further. I'm going to conquer that bitch too!

I didn't weigh in this week. I didn't want to see it, because I felt so sluggish and heavy. I don't know that my weight is actually affected, but the way I was feeling? Well, I didn't want to feel any worse.

I will weigh in on Saturday and take what's there.

Eating has been pretty good, but the weekend was a little off.

Tonight is rehearsal and we are doing all choreography. In the heat and humidity. God, grant me the serenity!

Tomorrow night is another playground. I can't wait!

Keep moving forward!