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Tuesday, March 5, 2013
What it was SUPPOSED to be, and what it ACTUALLY is...
My plan for this post was to show you pictures of a lovely weekend I spent with my hubby and boys, topped off with bright green toenail polished painted by yours truly. But, I suck and I can't get blogger to let me show you the pictures. So, there it is. One day I will be able to get it together on the sharing pics on Blogger thing. That day is not today.
For now, you get this:
Well, it's here guys. My surgery is tomorrow morning. I am a mixture of emotions that I can't even put into words, so I'm not going to right now. I'm attempting to "just be" with me - this is of course, a lame-o attempt at not freaking out. It's semi-working.
I've decided to forego class tonight. I will go home after work, spend time with my guys and get some last minute stuff done. I will go to my committee meeting tonight, because it will be my last for weeks. I feel good about this decision.
As I have had no time to get to the gym, I have been incorporating body weight exercises into everyday activities. Squats and pushups are my mainstays. I am doing at least 100 of each per day. Feels good.
So.... the moment we all knew was coming. Results were better than I thought, but not exactly what I was going for.
Weigh in this morning: 181
This is my lowest adult weight. In that, I HAVE to rejoice. I have worked, and I continue to work for every damn pound. My goal was 175 for surgery, and I am 6 lbs shy.
But I cannot hate that I have lost 184 lbs total.
Wow. I just have to let that number sink in.
I know my next number goal… although I am going to continue to not allow the scale to dictate me and my emotions… my next number goal is to be down 200 lbs total… It’s hard to know when I will get there. The skin removal will help, but I don’t really know how much. Only time will tell.
My priority will be to continue to become the fittest, healthiest, happiest person I can be.
Anyway, I’m outta here. Hopefully I will be able to be up and about and I’ll blog a little something Thursday, just to let you know I’m alive. LOL.
Peace everyone. Peace.