Wednesday, May 15, 2013
random jumble and phantosmia
I have so much random stuff going on in my brain right now, that I will warn you – this post will likely be scattered and not make a ton of sense. You have been warned.
Last final completed last night. YES. Now I have a whole 2.5 weeks till I start my summer class! At least that one is online only, thankfully! Meaning I can get it done on my lunch breaks at work, after the kids go to bed, and on weekends. It’s only 4 weeks. I’ll make it work. One step closer!
I am expecting A’s in both classes. Actually, probably A and A-. I’m really grateful, but I put a lot of stressful hard work into making sure these classes didn’t get the better of me, even being away from them for a few weeks in March.
I woke up this morning (actually I first noticed it at 3AM when Thing 2 got up briefly) that my throat hurt and felt all swollen and closed up. WTF people?? I was JUST sick last week! I don’t think I’m sick, however, I think it’s just horrendous allergies. My hubby said he feels the same way this morning. Maybe it was a bad idea to leave the window open while sleeping last night? I dunno.
(edited later to add – I now have a headache, and my body feels like it’s been hit by a truck)
So, my first thought is a nice, hot beverage will do WONDERS for this throat thing. SO, I go for a coffee cocoa. M-Fer. It was so freaking good. So, of course, bring the little addict that I am I walked down the hall to get another. However (and this is where you can stop rolling your eyes at my indiscretions) I got down the hall, and decided that this was enough. No more. I got some hot water and made some herbal tea.
This will not derail my day. I will not feel as though I’ve “already f*cked up, so who cares if I eat…” This black-and-white thinking is something I think a lot of people battle. It starts out innocently – “just one”, and then rolls forward to another, or more, and then becomes “well, screw it”.
The breaks have been applied.
Fuel for the day (including my indiscretion)
Meal 1: clean quiche
Meal 2: 4 oz plain Greek yogurt, 4 oz blackberries
Meal 3: 2 slices Ezekiel bread, toasted, with 2 tbs PB, 1 cup steamed broccoli with garlic salt
Meal 4: 1 banana, 2 hard boiled eggs
Training – Relentless @ Bodyology
Meal 5: large veggie salad, 4 oz organic chicken, grilled up with some seasoning and fresh pineapple.
I’m going for my first mid-week training session tonight. I’m so excited to get to Bodyology 2x per week in the summer and have to time to hit the gym another 3 or so days.
While I was pregnant with Thing 2, I was diagnosed with this thing called phantosmia. It’s when you smell things that aren’t really present in your environment. I was checked out and it was deemed that it was not due to anything serious. My doc was unsure why I developed it during pregnancy, and sure enough, when I had Thing 2, it did seem to go away.
Now it would be one thing if the smell was something pleasant. Flowers, rain… you get the idea. But I smelled cigarette smoke.
I AM NOT PREGNANT. TRUST ME ON THIS.
But here it is, in all its smoky glory. It’s revolting. It’s giving me a headache. NOTHING gets rid of it. I spray pretty fragrant mists around me and it helps for a few seconds and then it’s back. Same with eating – eating a meal helps, but does not get rid of the smell.
I’m praying this goes away very soon. It’s killin’ me.
Alright, I have to get back to work here. As mentioned above, when I started this post, I was feeling ok, and that’s going downhill. I just have to make it to 4:00 and through my workout…
Good God, its only 11:41.
Pray for me.