Tuesday, February 1, 2011

There are those days

All this snow and ice are starting to get me down. It's tough to get to the gym - I really don't want to bring the kids out in such poor weather, so I am forced to workout at home. I tried a new video today, and it was pretty good. Hardcore intervals, all strength training. So, I'm going to do a little cardio later as well.
Sometimes eating well makes me angry. Yes, I know that sounds crazy, but, sometimes I still wonder why some people have to work so hard to get where they want to be, and it seems to be so easy for others. This thought, however, reminds me of a great quote: "It's supposed to be hard. If it wasn't hard, everyone would do it. The hard... is what makes it great" (A League of Their Own)
Yeah, yeah, I know.... and in reality, the hard work is all worth it. I'M worth it.
Financially, things are getting very bad. Still no word on the job, my student loans are going into default and into collections. It's very, very bad. I have no recourse, and I don't know what's coming next. The absolute worst part is that my mom is my co-signer, and I am terrified they are going to go after her. I don't know what to do. I really didn't think that this job, that supposedly was "mine" would take so long to go through.
School is good - I love my nutrition class and I am soaking it all in. I know this is where I am supposed to be, I just wish it wasn't at my families expense. If anyone has any bright ideas, please feel free to share.


  1. Kell -

    Have you looked into getting a forebearance or a deferment for your loans. I have done it a few times and it was quite easy. I suppose it depends on who the loans are through. But Sallie Mae has been quite helpful. Good luck and keep up the great work!

  2. BTW - Queen CB is Stephanie Roche :)

  3. Hey Queen (Steph!) - yeah, been there done that. One loan has gone into collections. I'm working on getting representation to help me out, since they don't want to work out a reasonable payment plan. The waiting game on this job has been the real problem and thrown me under the bus financially. *sigh* I have to believe it will work out. Thanks for the thought!!

  4. Trust me I feel your pain. Good Luck with everything and remember what my mom always says - "This too shall pass"