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Monday, September 10, 2012

Challenge, Day 7 (oh, yeah, and 5 and 6)

Hello Blogger peeps-

I'm such a bad blogger on the weekends! I just never have time to sit down and write. So, here we are on Monday and I will update you on the last 3 days of the challenge...

This weekend was a tough-y for sure. Temptations were everywhere. I admit I almost caved a few times, but kept moving forward with the "just for today" idea. I'm going to stick out this challenge "just for today". Crossed each one in the same way...

It's all that pumpkin stuff out, dammit. It's everywhere! Let's take a super healthy vegetable and fill it with sugar - BAM - instant inner-fat-girl-junkie reaction. So, what did I do? I made incredible pumpkin blueberry oatmeal for breakfast yesterday and today. I used pumpkin pie spices, and I think it was fantastic. Not one stitch of added sugar (sweetness only from blueberries), and not one stitch of added artificial sweetner.

Word.

My hubby stayed strong with me, although he was as wavery as me at times. I'm really glad we stuck it out. This morning I found myself saying: "now what?"

Hmmmm, now what... well, the diet soda is gone for good, as far as I am concerned. Cheese? Yes, I miss it a little. I would have liked a little sprinkle of parmasean on my chili today - but that's the difference. A sprinkle or parm, or an oz of my reduced fat chedder, but not 4 oz a day. Let's see - stevia... well, I will likely use a little again. But I have found such great sweetness in using fruits for sweet things (like oatmeal) I will likely save it for use in something that is only on occasion.

Oh my beloved Click. I am afraid that I will not like the way it tastes now. It's really out of my system. I will find alternative coffee sustinance. Decaf, likely, and maybe using a little almond milk and stevia? Not sure. Untill I really am interested in it, I'm not going to worry about it. A little black tea in the morning is perfectly fine with me right now.

So, I guess "what now" is just more of the same. I feel good. Yes, it's hard, but it's healthy and fuels my body correctly.

I killed it on Saturday morning at Bodyology. KILLED. IT.

I went for a run outside yesterday - it wasnt as humid as it has been and was a little cooler. When I got back home, I was frustrated. I felt like it sucked. I walked a little more than I would have liked, and I didn't conqure the hills like I wanted. My legs felt like lead. I pushed and pushed and ran most of it, and really, I guess I only walked part of one hill... anyway, in hindsite, I got out there and did it, so that just has to be a plus. I didn't let the toughness of it allow me to stop halfway, or just walk home. So, I guess there is still triumph there.

Eats for today:

B: Blueberry Pumpkin Spice oatmeal
S: 3 tbs hummus, 1 cup total baby carrots and red peppers (I LOVE red peppers)
L: 1 cup vegetarian chili (some yellow squash and spinach in this one. Came out great) 1/2 banana
S: 1/2 banana, 1/4 cup roasted edemame
D: It will be late (school after work), and I'm not sure what I will feel like... but I do have some awesome black bean quinoa burgers home in the fridge - perhaps over a salad. 1/2 sweet potato might seal the deal.
Tons of water, 1 cup of vanilla almond tea (black)

One thing I FINALLY realized yesterday is after about day 4 I started to feel more full on less food. My tummy just had to adjust. I'm averaging about 1300 cals per day. I'm at 704 right now without dinner.

Ok, peeps. That's all I've got - Monday is super busy here and I have been writing little snippets all morning. Time to get back to it!

Keep moving forward!


Friday, September 7, 2012

Disgusted, Challenge Day 4, and Surgical Consult

OK , guys... check out this beauty:

Dr. OZ 99 Diet Foods

O. M. G.

I think I see exactly 17 things on this whole list that are not filled with crap artificial ingredients. And most of them are in the "condiment" section. It's disgusting how much money this guy is making to hock "health food"

Ok. I'm moving on.

It's Challenge Day 4 and things feel a bit easier. My hubby disagrees. He wants some diet soda. lol. I got him some seltzer.

TGIF babies. This week getting back into school and church meetings, in addition to work and kids has been... um... eye opening. For example, I honestly did not even realize I have not exercised since Monday. MONDAY PEOPLE. WTF?? Needless to say, this weekend is going to be painful because I'm going to make up all that time at home and at Bodyology.

I guess I need to go back to scheduling in workouts. I know Tues and Thursdays will not happen, since I'm out the door at 6:00 and not back in till 9:00 and Monday will be tough, as class is till 8:15... I walk on lunch, but I don't count that as a workout. That means the W, F, S and S will have to be it. Got to get it done!

Alright, so on to my appointment. This surgeon is awesome. I have seen some of her work, and she was personable, knowledgeable, and patient with my questions. Awesome. I feel like I will be in good hands.

She tells me I actually need a more extended procedure that previously thought. It's hard to explain, but I will need 2 incisions to do the job right, a vertical down the center, and a horizontal along the pelvic bone. The horizontal incision will be used to remove the whole bottom section, which will then be pulled tight and closed up, and the vertical will be pulled into the center, skin removed and then closed up.

Whew.

The arms will be straightforward. Incision from elbow to under the arm. Skin removed and pulled tight (but not too tight!) and closed up.

She had one of the other docs come in and see me, hear my story and check out my arms. He said he is doing a newer method of arms, and described it to me. What it comes down to is, there will be less scar, but also less taken off, and for my arms, because they are so loose all the way to the elbow (and even beyond, but there is nothing to do about that), it really wouldn't work and could even need a revision. I told him I don’t care about the scar. This is not a vanity thing, I'll wear a scar proudly. I will not wear hanging skin proudly... not when it causes pain and excessive care.

So, everything has been compiled and sent to the insurance company. I will call next week to see if they have heard anything. The doctor *seemed* very confident that the abdomen would be covered, but is, as I suspected, less optimistic about the arms.

So, send me up some good thoughts that whoever reviews my case will be kind. I would still like to lose about 20 lbs before surgery, but I'm not going to STOP myself from having it if I don't get quite that much.

When I told the doc I wanted to lose more, her eyebrows shot up - "MORE?" lol... yes. I guess it seems like 175 would be enough. But I want a normal BMI, and if I lose 20, and 20 of skin I will be.

Here is the link to my fundraising page, even if you just want to check out the whole story!

Kelliann's Reconstructive Surgery

Alright guys. Head into the weekend strong and keep moving forward!

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Challenge, Day 3

Mary over at A Small Loss was lovely to remind me that SUCE is, in fact, SUCK in French.

Awesome! It's so appropriate!

Challenge Day 3 of the Super Ultra Clean Eating Challenge is about half way over.

Damn, is it really only Day 3?? DAMN

I want to tell you that I don't miss my coffee protein shake in the AM, but I would be lying. BUT, I will keep moving forward and I believe that I WILL at some point not care about it at all.

Headache was prevolent this morning, but 1 cup of black tea was enough to help it subside. I think the weaning is better... and so does the throbing in my head.

One very good sign we are headed in the right direction is how sweet my Nutty Monkey oatmeal tasted this morning. Amazing what 1/2 a banana will do to sweeten something when you aren't assulting your taste buds with the other crap.

I am hoping to see the scale bust below that 190 I've been sitting at with this little boost. I will weigh in on Sunday or Monday morning.

Work is crazy, schedule is crazy, kids are crazy (but awesome)...

Eats for today:
B: Nutty Monkey Oatmeal (oats, 1/2 banana, 2 tbs PB)
S: 1/2 banana 1 oz almonds
L: 4 oz spicy shrimp (thank you hubby!) with 1/2 cup brown rice and chopped veggie salad with 2 tbs homemade dressing
S: 3 oz chicken meatloaf muffin
D: No freaking clue. :-)

I'm so full now after lunch, I'm not even worried about snack or dinner or anything else.

Doctor appointment at 3:30. Nervous. Will hopefully get the lowdown on if insurance is going to play ball, and if not, what these surgeries are going to run me. I am really, really hoping she has a good outlook on the insurance co..

From the doctors I go to math class, from math I stop and have 10 minutes with my boys, and then off to church choir rehearsal. That gets done around 9:00. Stop at the store for kids milk and yogurt, and for a few fresh fruits and veggies, since we are OUT. Home to make all lunches, and then face-plant in the bed and hope for a fast Friday.

How's it going with all of YOU out there??

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

My Project

You get a double-header today, folks!

So, I have mentioned previously that I was working on a project. Well, I guess I am working on multiple projects, but this is one of them.

I have also mentioned before about skin removal surgery and attempting to get the insurance company to pay for at least PART of the abdominalplasty (belly).

Well, I'm still trying.

In fact, tomorrow I see a different surgeon. One that is a specialist on surgery after large weight loss. She is the head of the department at the hospital I work for.

I am nervous. But, I digress.

On to the project. Since it is obvious that the insurance company will NOT cover the brachioplasty (arms), I knew I needed to find a way to raise/make the money. So, I developed this site:

http://www.gofundme.com/v8gfc

It's my page where I am fundraising for the money to have my surgeries. On it you will find before and after pictures, and a video Q&A where I actually show my skin issues.

This was a really difficult thing to do. I am sure many of you can imagine how it would feel to show the world horrible, ugly, hanging skin. I am baring myself, physically, mentally, emotionally, to the world. But these procedures are THAT important to me. I want to be normal. I want to lead a normal life without the constant painful (physical and mental) reminder of the 365 pound woman I once was.

Feel free to check out the site. Let me know what you think.

SUCE Challenge Day 2

I think it's hilarious that that acronym for my Super Ultra Clean Eating Challenge looks strikingly like the word SUCK.

SUCE=SUCK = hilarity.

Ok, it's not really that bad right now. Yesterday was pretty horrible. Metal spikes searing into my brain is an accurate description of how I felt by the end of Day 1.
Awesome.

It's pretty incredible actually - I had no idea how much of the artificial stuff I was really consuming until I cut it out totally, and frankly, I'm missing it. But, I KNOW it's so much better for me to be without, and I ALSO know that this "missing it" feeling will pass, once it's all outta my system. (right?? lol)

Let's talk about caffeine for a moment. I really don't have a problem with caffeine. I didn't start this challenge in order to specifically get rid of caffeine. It came along for the ride because most of the caffeine I was consuming was through diet soda or my morning Click protein coffee. I have NEVER liked regualr coffee or plain tea. Well, this morning I decided to try a little plain tea and surprisingly it was pretty good!

A little caffeine for the one cup of tea - seems like a nice happy medium to me. What do you guys think? Is this "excuse making" or "balance"?

I'm still logging all of my food, to keep my calories in check, but I don't see that as being a problem.

Eats for today:

B: Peanut Butter and Jelly Oatmeal ( 1/2 cup plain oats, cooked in microwave for 2 minutes with 1/4 cup unsweetnend almond milk. After it's cooked, added 2 tbs (yes, 2!) of natural pb, and 1/2 cup of strawberries I had pulsed up in the food processor. Came out very good, if I do say so myself)
S: banana
L: large salad with 2 tbs less-oil dressing (homemade), 3/4 cup 2 bean vegetarian chili and 1/2 sweet potato. (Holy crap, I am stuffed)
S: Don't think I'll need one, but I have a meatloaf muffin...
D: Veggie and egg scramble with spinach, peppers, tomatoes, a little corn, and maybe a little salsa thrown in with 2-3 egg whites. A little seasoning
S: Apple

Total calories before dinner and apple is 872...

I'm trying to shove the water in, but I feel really bloated, and frankly, I look a little pregnant. But, I am constantly sipping to try and get it all in.

Gym later. Cook later. Sleep later...

Going strong... or, at least, going! :-)

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Challenge Day 1

Here we are people - day one of Super Ultra Clean Eating Challenge.

I named it myself. Yes, you may admire it.

Basically, it's a way of ridding my eating plan of all the crap that has crept in. 1 tablespoon of stevia into my oatmeal bake turns into a diet soda here and there back into the full swing of 2 diet sodas per day.

I know, the stuff is a killer. And it's just as addictive as the real deal... we just don't see the consequences of it as quickly or blatantly, so we ignore it.

Taking out all artificial sweetener has also put a kibosh on my delightful protein coffee in the AM.

Thus, the reason for the raging caffeine withdrawal headache that is currently pounding.

Also, I am removing dairy, except for up to 6 oz plain, non-fat Greek yogurt a day. This is tough... I was telling myself that it was tough because it's a big source of protein for me. This IS true, however, it's really hard because I LOVE cheese, dammit. Once again, it's going overboard, and I am removing it for now. After the challenge, it will be re-introduced in smaller amounts.

The fake-sugar? Nope. Will not be re-introduced.

I am feeling like this will help me stay away from regular sugar too, by reducing the cravings over all.

So, eats for today... still feeling it all out...
B: "Mug Oatmeal" made with 1/2 cup oats (broken down a little in the food processor), 3 tbs unsweetened almond milk, 1 tbs natural peanut butter (just peanuts and salt, people!) 1/2 banana. Smoosh together (very technical term) and microwave for 1 minute. It was a little dry, so next time, I'll add some water or a little more almond milk as well. But very yummy.
S: 15 baby carrots, 2 tbs hummus
L: 2 chicken meatloaf muffins (if you are interested in the recipe, let me know) 3/4 cup steamed broccoli
S: banana, 1 oz almonds
D: 1/2 cup chick peas, slightly mashed, 1/4 cup salsa, 2 tbs nutritional yeast
S: 4-6 oz Greek yogurt... not sure what will accompany it...

All food is being eaten on the run, so everything had to be packed. Today’s schedule is:

work 7:30 - 4:30
(walk to school, buy my math (yuck) book)
School 5:20 - 6:30
Meeting 7:30 - 9:00

I have a little hour in the middle of school and meeting... the question is -do I stop home briefly and potentially make it worse for Thing 1 and 2 when I have to leave again? Or sit in my car and work on my extra projects... I dunno...


Inner Fat Girl is bitching somethin' fierce: "This was NOT a good day to start this. You are TOO busy and TOO stressed and it's too much to handle it all. At LEAST go get a nice, cold, bubbly Diet Dr. Pepper to help you through the afternoon..."

No thanks, IFG.

Keep moving forward...

Monday, September 3, 2012

Super ultra clean challenge

Happy Labor Day!

Just a quick post to announce that I will be participating in what I call a "super ultra clean challenge". It was be a more strict version of te eating I do normally. The differences are as follows:

No sugar (which I'm already doing, but I'm going to be extremely careful that NOTHING I eat has any added sugar at all. Seasoning, any kind of bread product, nothing)

No artificial sweetener

No dairy, except 1 serving of plain greek yogurt a day. This means no cheese, and I WILL miss it!!

The focus will be on vegetables, lean proteins, beans and legumes, 3 servings of fruit (max) per day, healthy fats, nuts, and water, water, and water...

This will last for at least a week. Ater which I will reassess incorporating *some* cheese back in, but keep sugar and artificial sweetener out.

This begins tomorrow, since I have to grocery shop for it! Mini meatloaves and black bean burgers being prepped for tomorrow!

Keep moving forward!!