Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Conversations... with myself.

It's Tuesday, and I keep thinking it's Monday. This is, of course, a good thing, but also annoying, as I was not prepared for my class after work today. Thanks to my hubby, I am now.


Liquids again today. I think this will be the final day, and I will move to lots of liquids and *some* food. I am getting my body back on the band wagon after Hurricane Irene gave me too much of an excuse to eat like crap.
As soon as I realized that I was unprepared for my class this evening and had the subsequent freak-out, I conversation began:

"liquids just isn't a good idea today".
"Why? Why isn't it a good idea?"
"Well.... because.... I need more energy than this to get through the day..."
"You are taking in enough calories to function perfectly well"
But, but... I, um, OK FINE: I need to comfort myself with food"
"ohhhhh, I see. But, when do you *NOT* feel as though you need to do that?"
".... um... never, I guess"
"so, it will never be a "good time" to get yourself into this place... So, SUCK IT UP, BUTTERCUP"

So, if you don't have conversations like this in your own head, you might think I'm a nut-job, and well, that might be true. But, this is how I have to deal with myself sometimes.
The left-over pastries all over the office are not helping, but they are REALLY not going to help anything in my body. As a matter of fact, I will feel worse, and frankly, will still feel nervous about class. So, WTF?

Needless to say, liquids continues through today. Good times.

1 comment:

  1. Oh the wonderful world of conversations with the inner self. I hate those. I hate how one me is totally smart and logical, but the other me, the me I am use to, makes sense too, I mean, until little miss logical make believe me gets in the way. Ugh. So much frustration. ;)

    Glad you are sticking to the logical you.