Thursday, October 20, 2011

Sabotage and Addiction

Wow, I can't believe it's already Thursday. Don't get me wrong, I'm VERY happy about that. Today does seem to be dragging.

I am continuing to remind myself "one day at a time, one pound at a time" and it is still working for me. It's hard to stay in that mind set, when I am SOOO CLOSE to a HUGE goal of mine of being under 200lbs. This morning (yes, I peaked) I was 201.4. Yes. I'm THAT close. Usually that is when my self-sabotage starts up. I really, honestly don't know why that happens. So, today, more so than days previous, I am finding myself taking things a *moment* at a time. Moving away from my self-sabotaging ways is hard. I know that sounds totally backwards - and trust me, I think it IS backwards, but I have just had to make peace with how my brain and psyche works and work WITH it rather than AGAINST it.

So, I saw THIS article on Yahoo a few days ago.

Some of my buddies have been chatting about it on Facebook... But I haven't seen any mention of it in any of the blogs I follow. I actually found that funny, since I follow almost strictly weight loss blogs. This trainer is purposely making himself obese. When I first heard about this guy, I thought he was doing it to "prove" that it was “easy" to take the weight off, or something like that. However, that does not seem to be the case. Apparently, he is putting it on so that he can feel what his clients feel like and can work with them more effectively. Of course, he has a plan for taking it all off again. In the article, he mentions that he already feels "addicted" to many of the fatty and sugary foods he is consuming.

Now, part of me says "wow. That is pretty amazing. He really wants to serve the obese community by giving himself first hand education on being obese"... then there is this other part of me. The part that says "if this was a drug and alcohol counselor who decided to become a druggy for a while so he could experience what his clients feel like, how would I feel about that?" Well, I would think he was totally insane.

So, how closely do we equate the "addiction" of food/sugar and the "addiction" of drugs and alcohol? There are studies that show that sugar specifically triggers the same chemicals in the body and brain as hard core drugs. But, is it doing the same amount of damage? Well, anything is excess can cause damage, especially over time.

That same part of me looks at how HARD this is to do. How much SO many people STRUGGLE everyday, and I think "Dude, why are you DOING this to yourself??? ON PUROPOSE??"

So, the answer is, I am torn about this guy. His blood pressure is already dangerously high, and he still has 4 more weeks to "gain". I am dying to hear what you guys think.


  1. Wow, this reminds me of that documentary "Super Size Me"--so very unhealthy and dangerous!

  2. I read it a few days ago. I personally think he is doing it as a stunt. 2 Fit 2 Fat 2 Fit is his game plan, I think it will be a book. Which is awesome, however... Does someone who has never tried illegal drugs, try illegal drugs, quit, go back to a normal life and then write a book about it? It just seems dangerous. I hope he gets whatever he wants, out of his experience. And then add on age... isn't it harder to lose weight when you are older? He isn't exactly 19 anymore so he is really putting himself in a tight spot. But hey, America is addicted to reality. No matter who it hurts...

  3. 1. I think he is a well meaning idiot
    2. Compulsive eating is an addiction I live with. I do not need anyone to test it for me.
    3. You are either an addict or not. He is not going to become an addict because he spends a few months forcing himself to gain weight.


  4. Wow. He ruined a perfectly delicous looking set of abs...on purpose. Not cool. He's playing with fire (and my zoom feature!). ;)


  5. I came across the article too, and I don't agree with it. If he really wanted to know what others went through then all he'd have to do is take a look at all of these blogs about losing weight -- more than that, if I was a trainer I'd encourage my clients to keep a blog and share those experiences with others ... because these issues are real.

    Going from a body like the one he had to obese isn't the same as having the uncontrollable desire to eat - sometimes rooted in very low self-esteem and other emotional issues. It's just not the same. If someone has been overweight their whole life, they don't know what it feels like to be in good shape ... that's not a struggle this guy will understand.