Friday, January 27, 2012

Decisions, decisions.

I wanted to post quickly and thank everyone for their honest opinions regarding my schedule. I really think you are ALL right. It's the answer I KNEW in my heart, but was afraid go admit. Why was I afraid? Because I used to be the queen of excuses. I "excused" my way up to 365 lbs. So, its hard for me to trust myself when it comes to removing workouts.

Next week I am still going to keep my Thursday workout. It's been specifically designed for the members doing the mud run. So, I really want to be there. After that, I will be going to Bodyology on Saturday mornings until May, with a few exceptions.

I think the comments that were left for me helped me so much. I will never get this time back with my boys. They are growing up so fast, and I don't want to miss it. Being here another evening per week will help me feel more balanced.

I knew had made the right decision earlier today, but I was REALLY sure when, this afternoon I saw my boys after work, and the older one wouldn't let go of me! He kept saying "I missed you mama, I love you mama". oh, it made me feel so good, and broke my heart all at once.

Food today was a little tough. I'm out of a lot of my go-to items and that can make cravings a little more prevalent. Picked a few things up at the store. I found myself practically convincing myself it would be ok to get junk food! I don't even really want it, but the IFG really wanted to rear her ugly head. Well, I beat the bitch back into submission, picked up fruits and veggies and came home to a big green salad and chicken burgers made by the hubby. He makes great burgers! Sans bun, of course!

Tomorrow morning is another awesome workout, and then a day with the family. I can't wait.
Thank you again for all of your support, blog-land. You all have been so awesome and I appreciate your help.

I'm off to get some much needed rest! Stay strong, soldier on!!