Saturday, June 18, 2011

Serious Victory

Good weekend, blog-land
So, this morning I had an amazing hardcore workout at Tuff Girl Fitness and on the way home I was plagued with sugary evil thoughts. I suddenly thought of my favorite cupcake store of all time - Sugar in East Haven, CT. They actually WON Cupcake Wars on Food Network. Seriously good. Anyway, these cupcakes popped into my head. I thought to myself - "You're just hungry after your workout. Go home, have breakfast, and stop thinking about f'in cupcakes". So, home I went. Eat my breakfast, and couldn't get these dang things out of my head. I shared my thoughts with Hubs, and he was ALL for a little cupcake cheat... So, what can I say - we went to Sugar. Yes. Walked in that door and the first thing that hit me was the smell. Oh, sugary yummyness. I mean, this is my drug of choice here, people. Then, I saw two very overweight ladies walking out of the shop loaded down with goodies... This gave me pause. When I notice an overweight person, my heart goes out to them, because I know how they feel - BUT, I also don't want to BE that person again. Ok, so, in the shop. They must have 25 different flavors of cupcakes. So, I look over each one, in my mind looking for one that will pop out as the perfect little cheat. I looked, and looked, and looked. And the most amazing thing happened.
Nothing "popped".
I'm thinking I just have to look harder. These are so good, there HAS to be one that I want.
I keep looking.
Finally, I make the realization that I DON'T WANT ONE.
Yes, that's right. I don't want a cupcake. It wasn't worth the calories to me. Certainly not if I only kinda felt "meh" about them.

So, I tell the hubs, with trepidation, because I don't want to ruin the cupcakes for him. He looks at me and says "you know, what? I was kinda thinking the same thing"
And we walked out of Sugar Cupcake Bakery with nothing in hand.
To those who have never struggled with food addition, or any addiction - this may seem like no big deal to you. But it is a HUGE deal for someone who struggles with addiction to sugar.
This is one HUGE moment that I realize I am really changing my life.
On another note, I have had almost no caffeine today. I am out of my Click and I refuse to go to Starbucks (um, did I just say that??) So, headache and general bitchiness is ensuing. Poor Hubs.

1 comment:

  1. keep it up, Kell! You won't climb the mountains until you learn to handle the hills!