I've lost 185lbs, and then gained some back.
But I'm kicking ass and striving for my ultimate goal: A 200 lb loss.
Working all mental, physical and emotional aspects of being healthy, happy and fit. You'll see my ups and downs here, because I'm proud to be imperfect!
Friday, January 25, 2013
Purpose, goals, focus
HEY! Did that title get you to open the post? J
I’ve been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. Nothing really new – but some things I have to address.
My psychiatrist (the guy who gives me the meds J) asked me a very interesting question.
“So…. What is your goal after your surgery?”
Wow. I hadn’t thought about it. I’ve been very focused on getting to surgery. But what about after?
I’m really glad he posed the question. We all remember how I totally fell apart after my mud run in the fall. It was the beginning of months of struggle in many ways.
I think this can happen to the best of ‘em. You prep and focus on a specific event. Then once it’s over – well, you feel empty. You feel a sense of loss. Loss of purpose. Loss of focus.
So, now I am really thinking on it. Why am I concerned about it? Well, because I am prone to bouts of depression. And this type of sudden lack of focus and lack of specific goals is the biggest culprit of a flare up.
What is my goal after surgery? For my entire life that I can recall – my life has been focused on weight loss goals. Yes, I will still need to lose some weight after the surgery, but it will be a lot more strength gaining and losing weight will be a little less “urgent”. Maintaining a healthy focus while not actively needing to lose a large amount of weight is something I have never encountered. Maybe, for the first time, the number on the scale will not be what I base myself of… what then?
Specific fitness goals seem to make sense here. Strength gaining goals. I have lots of these I can think of – the only issue with this being my focus, is that I will be unable to do any intense training for probably 6 weeks after the surgery.
Keeping my diet very clean will be a priority, of course…
I have already signed up for another mud run in the fall… so, there is training for that….