Thursday, January 31, 2013

Moody Post

I am so overwhelmed I don’t even know how to start this post.

This system change at work has everyone crazed. I have so many piles of things on my desk, than I needed a break from trying to get everything together. Thus, here I am.

I was given another, much bigger job to do with the search committee I am part of at church. I didn’t know how extensive the job was when I signed up for it. My stomach is in knots. Last night after I left the meeting, I stopped at the grocery store – hubby asked me to pick up seltzer – and I wandered into the bakery section. It’s hard NOT to, when It’s the first thing you walk into when you walk in the door.

I called my hubby. I explained my stress from the meeting and I said

“I need help – I’m eyeing a cheesecake”.

To which he said

“It’s ok baby. Just go get the seltzer and come home. You know that will only make things worse”.

Yes. I do know that. I walked out of the bakery section with his assistance, got seltzer and went home.

Thank you, thank you, thank you hubby

School has begun. Struggle to keep my sanity is getting to a high point. Yes, already.

Last night's mini-hurricane made for some interesting non-sleep. Our windows are old and drafty, and when the wind blows like that, it sounds like screaming through the window. I kept dreaming about people screaming, and then waking up to the wind.

Stats for today before dinner:

Cals 963 Fat 19 g Cholesterol 57 mg Sodium 2147 mg Carbs 134 g Fiber 21 g Protein 67 g Sugars 49 g

Feel good about them. Big salad for dinner.

Went to Group Power last night before my meeting. I left the house with a 2 year old crying for me, begging for me to hold him.

Sometimes it just doesn’t feel worth it. My heart was broken.

Home workout tonight before choir practice. Tomorrow is D-Day for the program. Then, thank GOD it will be the weekend.

I’m moody. Sorry for that. Gonna go before I do any more complaining.


  1. Don't apologize for being moody! Those are all real life stressors that affect mood. I'm sorry it's so tough right now, but I admire how you are handling it

  2. I totally empathize with you. My job has been...VERY stressful lately. (As in, please stab me so I can have a couple days off! lol) Sometimes you just want to say: Enough already!

    Hang in there! You can do this!


  3. You're allowed to be moody cuz we can't fart gumdrops every day, you know? It is heartbreaking some days...and tough as shit - but we're moms - so we do it anyway.

  4. Nice girls finish fat, Kelliann. An exhausted woman is no good to anyone, least of all to herself. My self-centered suggestion is that it might be time to consider which of your obligations can survive without you...and that'd be the committee thing. Work and family need you, and you need your sanity and your workouts. Your call, of course, but something to think about. Learning to say no to things/people has been key for me.