Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Musings part deux

Pretty good day. Had a nice brisk walk in the muggy weather today with hubby at lunch, and then did a Biggest Loser cardio DVD workout. Feel good - tired, but good. Ate pretty well.

Watching the Biggest Loser Finale. I have a love-hate relationship with the Biggest Loser now. I really hate that media-whore Jillian Michaels, but I love to see people succeed in their weight loss goals and do things they never imagined they could do. That is why I am moving into the fitness and nutrition field - I want to help people do that. I want to see that glow and know that I helped someone change their lives and find fitness and hopefully a longer, fuller life. What could be better than that?
I love teaching voice lessons to people. It's a similar experience - sometimes you work with someone and the light suddenly goes off and there is a huge breakthrough. To see someone glow with pride at their accomplishment is so rewarding... however, I feel like a bit of a mediocre voice teacher. I often know how to fix faults, and I can work to improve peoples tone, and technique, but it really bothers me that I can't play piano to accompany my students. It makes me feel incompetent and I don't feel I can adequately prepare some of them for the auditions and performances they work toward. I don't like feeling this way... it's part of the reason I needed to find something in my life I could feel totally competent in. I don't want to feel like something is missing from my career... It's hard to explain.
Anyway, I know it's been a double post day. Sometimes I just have more to say, and need to get it out. Thanks for reading.
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1 comment:

  1. Kell I think you're wonderful, and never forget that. As far as feeling completely competent, that is unfortunately a "misnomer". I've been in the Army for 11 years this June and I still don't feel 100% and it's not for lack of effort or trying. I don't mean to rain on your parade, but it's a grim reality. No one can be perfect all of the time. You have to accep your faults, improve upon them the best you can and finally accept that you are allowed to not know it all. It makes life so much more barable. That's not to say that we shouldn't strive for perfection. I for one have tried for a while, but I can say with a clear heart that sometimes the not knowing is more interesting than knowing everything. Good night my friend! You are wonderful just as you are.