Monday, August 6, 2012

blood sugar, money, and other such suckage...

Let me just get this out of the way: WI results: 196. Up 3 lbs.

Yes, that sucks. But it seems as though my body likes to play yo-yo, even when I am on target. I would have had to eat an AWFUL lot of calories for 3 lb gain of real fat. And I know for a fact that I didn't. I was NOT perfect, but I wasn't horrible. Just moving on.

Anyway, We will check in again next week and see where we are at. It can only get better.

I've been having some blood sugar issues lately. It's been crashing on me (which is a terrible feeling - heart racing, sweating, shaking) and so I have been trying to eat a little more often, on a schedule, and keeping everything very balanced. Obviously still weighing, measuring, and logging/counting all food/calories. The whole thing is weird, because it used to happen to me when I would overeat on something high in sugar, and then after I would feel the crash... not sure why it is happening when I am eating higher protein, and lower carb (in general).

Speaking of all this, here are the eats for today:

1 scoop click, almond milk, water, ice
B: Oxygen oatmeal
S: 1/2 cup lowfat cottage cheese, 1/2 cup blueberries - awesome combo, by the way
L: 1 serving zucchini lasagna
S: 1/2 medium banana, 1 oz cabot lowfat cheese
D: Salad, with 1/2 cup chickpeas and another 1 oz of cheese, 2 tbs dressing
S: if needed, apple, with 1 tbs PB

Yesterday was fine for eating - I just didn't feel like anything. I drank a lot of water, had some home made veggie soup for lunch and toiled on what I wanted for dinner. Nothing appealed. I did end up eating some more roasted veggies, with a little parmesean, some of the zucchini lasagna. Then, I just called it a day. Under calories, which is weird for me. Maybe it was the damn humidity and heat. Holy Gawd!

Saturday was a tough day for eating, but I was very proud of myself. I was at a picnic for most of the day, celebrating a 5 year olds (nephew) birthday party. Pizza, cheese puffs and cupcake on the menu.

I drank a diet soda, and a bunch of water. I did not even contemplate the pizza and such.

That evening, hubby took me out to a local vegan restaurant(so nice- we never get to go out!). It's very, very good. I chose carefully, and only ate 1/2 at dinner, and finished it later. Tempeh, hot mustard, saurkraut, sweet potato fries (and yes, they were fried) however, this was *almost* the only thing I ate that day (except for oatmeal right after bootcamp). I don't feel bad about it. Not one iota. It was WAY too delicious. Totally worth it.

Went to Bodyology on Saturday and worked my ass off. It helped that hubby was there filming me for my fundraising project. I'm going to use the footage and build up the site with Q and A, info and workout clips. He's going to come with me one more time (likely Saturday morning again) to see more of the lifting, as there was a lot on the TRX and body weight work on Sat, but nothing with good, heavy weights.

Only 3 more Tuff Girl workouts left. Next Wednesday will be my last one. Money sucks.

Feeling really emotional the past few days, like things are just falling through my fingers... feeling out of control. Not with food, but with life. Finances are a huge stressor, as they are with most people, so I know I shouldn't complain. I wish I could be doing what I really WANT to be doing as a career, and I don't like my job, but I am grateful for it at the same time, as so many don't have jobs at all... I have no real reason to be bitching, so I'll shut it. *sigh*

Hold fast to what you want and keep moving forward. Peace and Love to you all.


  1. Kelliann, I'm no doctor, but have you considered maybe the heart racing/shaking, etc. isn't a sugar crash but possibly a panic attack? I know from your last several posts you've got a lot on your mind and are feeling kind of overwhelmed...your food intake looks good so sugar crash just doesn't fit? Just an idea.

    1. Honestly, till you mentioned it, I would have never thought of that. Frankly, with my history, it's an unfortunate possibility. I'm going to pay better attention to situations, rather than what I ate the hour before, when I start to feel that way...
      Thanks so much!

  2. Don't worry about the weight going up - our bodies are so alike, lol so.. If I go out to eat @ a restaurant, I always show a gain because of the salt. My body hates salt, and when I'm not able to accurately determine the salt I've eaten, it's almost a for sure that I've had too much. Yesterday I ate at Buffalo Wild Wings, who by the way started putting their calories ON the menu here YAY!, and the salad I had was fine. However, I dug a little deeper and found it had a whopping 97% of my sodium for the day, lol. Woah.

    1. The sodium is a beast, no doubt. The 3 lbs is already gone this morning, which is great. Hoping to show a loss on official WI day! Thanks girlie!

  3. Heyyyy- sorry you are feeling so emotional these days. It makes sense with all that you are going through. Money struggles & being unhappy in your job are major life stressors. So I'm tending to agree with Norma that perhapps some of your symptoms are anxiety related. Just something to consider. I know I feel that way you describe when I get super anxious - and also weight doesn't drop off as fast when I'm not feeling well. Stress will do that to a girl.

    Hold steady, you are doing awesome with your food & workouts.

    1. Jenn - yes, I think Norma might have a really good point. Something I am going to pay better attention to, for sure. Thanks for the support!